My Feelings
Please do not take my comments personal...they are just what I am feeling today. It's been a heavy week, with a new Memorial for Ken. It was simply much more over powering then my husband or I imagained...I am sad,,,,I am in pain,,,,I feel alone...
It was a beautiful beautiful ceremory our church had for my son. I just didn't know it would hurt so bad one day before his 6 months in Heaven...I can't imagine not talking to him,,,touching him, holding his hand, hearing his voice. It's seems it's been a while now since I had a good cry...Maybe that is what I am needing. I don't want to go forward right now, my pain is feeling so fresh again. So if I have my Pity Party let me feel the pain.
I love my son so much as I know all of you did to (love you child). My life feels so empty right now...and I feel so alone again. I have no one i feel I can turn to, no one to talk to. The thing about our pain is our family and friends sorta get tired of hearing it over and over again, yet no matter how busy you get, no matter how involved you are, no matter what you are doing,,,,if you stop and think they are always there in your mind, in your being....Our children is an extension of our heart and the day they went to Heaven a piece of our Heart went too>>>>>>
Sandi
It was a beautiful beautiful ceremory our church had for my son. I just didn't know it would hurt so bad one day before his 6 months in Heaven...I can't imagine not talking to him,,,touching him, holding his hand, hearing his voice. It's seems it's been a while now since I had a good cry...Maybe that is what I am needing. I don't want to go forward right now, my pain is feeling so fresh again. So if I have my Pity Party let me feel the pain.
I love my son so much as I know all of you did to (love you child). My life feels so empty right now...and I feel so alone again. I have no one i feel I can turn to, no one to talk to. The thing about our pain is our family and friends sorta get tired of hearing it over and over again, yet no matter how busy you get, no matter how involved you are, no matter what you are doing,,,,if you stop and think they are always there in your mind, in your being....Our children is an extension of our heart and the day they went to Heaven a piece of our Heart went too>>>>>>
Sandi
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I take your comments personal in the way that we should: that we are here for a reason that, while we hate it, it is our common reason. We are here for each other in a personal way that others cannot understand, even if they think they do. I truly understand about how, no matter what else is going on, my son is always right there in my thoughts, never far. So you have us and we all have each other and we will never get tired of hearing anything you have to say. It helps me to hear from others and now that I am not alone in my pain. Love and Hugs to you, Belinda
Your comments are personal and you feelings are your feelings. We\'ve all been there, and we are here to support you. You have to feel it all and move through it. Then slowly you begin to heal. You don\'t forget. You just learn to live with and find some peace. Love and hugs, Beth
I understand... love you, Linda
I to understand your grief and loneliness. There is not a day that goes by that I don\'t feel the emptiness in my stomach and in my heart. Please know, that we are all here for you. Heart to heart, Danette
We understand and will always listen Hugs Cathy
Grief is a journey we will always find ourselves on...now is a difficult part of the trail...it is confusing and we are flooded by emotion, memories, guilt, love, pain, abandonment...we seem lost and cannot find our way...sometimes we find ourselves on the same part of the trail again...but then we will see a path that seems more well lit...a path that eventually will guide us to a more hopeful journey...just know that we are here...we understand and we offer our hands to help you by listening, supporting and truly understanding...oh how we wish you did not have this journey to make, but we all will find our way...
Take care of you ((((HUGS)))) Ann
Grief is a journey we will always find ourselves on...now is a difficult part of the trail...it is confusing and we are flooded by emotion, memories, guilt, love, pain, abandonment...we seem lost and cannot find our way...sometimes we find ourselves on the same part of the trail again...but then we will see a path that seems more well lit...a path that eventually will guide us to a more hopeful journey...just know that we are here...we understand and we offer our hands to help you by listening, supporting and truly understanding...oh how we wish you did not have this journey to make, but we all will find our way...
Take care of you ((((HUGS)))) Ann
It is so hard, Sandi....It is just 17 months for me and the tears just seem to flow out of my eyes on their own no matter what....I remember that longing you speak of. It was so very strong a few months ago. Now, I think the tears are more just about sadness....I don\'t know. It is so absolutely true that this is a roller coaster, and not a fun one. Please be gentle with yourself, give yourself time and space to be in the place you need to be on your grief journey. Your grief, the ceremony for Kenny, and your surgery conbined together must be overwhelming....We are here for you and we love you. Peace and Love to you. Anne