My feelings

I don't usually write stuff down because I usually forget to do it and then I get to feelign bad about that to. However, I feel the need to get some stuff off my chest.  Issue number #1: My boyfried. My boyfriend's name is Ricky and he has a best friend who is a female name Marcella. Well, About two months ago, I started to feel like there was something going on between them that had nothing to do at all with friendship. Marcella has come into our town twice to "visit him as a friend." He got upset because I basically accused him of cheating on me with her and I had no proof. I will regret accusing him with no proof and I don't know that we can ever repair the damage. Anyway, Marcella, then told him (after mentioning that he used to have a cross necklace) that she was going to get him a $140 necklace for christmas. The next thing that happened was she paid to get him a cell phone on her cell phone plan. I mean ok, I know we needed one because his mom is really sick and if we are out we wanted to know that we could be gotten a hold of in case of an emergency. Marcella constantly texts him saying "I love you" and "the day b4 xmas as I lightly kiss ur lips and ur skin feels so good," It is shit like this that is making me crazy. Ricky tells me that he loves me and that he wouldn't have sex with me if he no longer wanted me. He told me he wants to have kids with me and wishes that we could get our own place. See, I lost my apt (and car) and had to move in with his family. I truly believe that it has put a strain on our relationship and all. I trust him to a certain extent but there is no way in hell that I will ever trust Marcella. She claims she was devastated when she caught her husband cheating on her, then why would she want to make me feel the same way.