my eating

 So think this is my first eating journal. This first time im gonna open up about my eating this is hard. I use to be anerexic when i was younger! i got out of it. now its all coming back but worse than ever. Each day all thats on my mind is food and when to be sick and what to eat will come out no matter what was being sick or laxitives and diet pills. dont know what to do i thought all my ED past but no its coming bk with revenge. i hate how i look and how my body is. Its ugly i pinch fat all the time. i joined gym today i done 45 mins on treadmill im gooing tommorow too. need to get this fat of me some how and i wil do it. Today i eaten far too much!!!! spag bol, toast,mini fillet burger thing from kfc.I suck.