My destiny???

<this is how i should be....and which i usually am. damn, i am getting so friggin frustrated. I don't know how to express myself...at all...i dont want to say anythiing wrong, or misleading...i'm having a hard time understanding why i'm here. i love the scenery around me..its purdy..live in a beautiful house(too big for just 2 ppl), on a beautiful piece of land...and this bitch aint happy......ug.  i just feel so empty when it comes to a partner in life...............dont get me wrong, i love him with all my heart, not for what he can give me material wise or just plain payin for everything.. i know he loves me.but he aint got time to listen to me....i wonder how long i'm gonna live like this. It all looks so good from the outside fer sure..i just want to scream right now but i cant..lol..talk about freakin ppl out..lol   wouldnt want to do that :P  I just think something is gonna have to happen soon and i'm not sure what.