My Brain Shut Down
My brain has been going thru so much pain and stress for the last 3 weeks. I couldnt eat, had a hard time sleeping, almost wanted to quit my job, couldnt play video games, watch my tv shows, or do art. I couldnt do anything.
A few days ago I just talked about how I felt with my bf and I rarely talk about how I deeply and emotionally feel with him. Mainly because somehow it turns into him getting upset and me having to cuddle him and make sure hes ok on top of me feeling like shit already.
But, somehow talking to him this time was different. I didnt cry and all I did was talk normally and not all upset like I usually do. When I came back from work yesterday, all I really did was sleep and my bf was there with me. I slept for about 13 to 14 hours and felt really good after that. I felt like sleeping that long helped my brain rewire itself and helped my body get back to normal.
The stress that was bothering me was the whole me thinking these group of people that I hungout with were my friends, then this one person not ending up being my friend after almost 3 years, my bf having trouble with his friend of 5+ years and somehow me getting involved, there was a shooting at a local tv station and 2 news people I watched on tv died, me feeling anxious after that shooting and paranoid about everything, me working longer hours and moving to full time, my brain just couldnt take it anymore and I legit just shut down.
But, that sleep helped me alot. I feel like I can start healing now that I dont feel off balanced and stressed out.
A few days ago I just talked about how I felt with my bf and I rarely talk about how I deeply and emotionally feel with him. Mainly because somehow it turns into him getting upset and me having to cuddle him and make sure hes ok on top of me feeling like shit already.
But, somehow talking to him this time was different. I didnt cry and all I did was talk normally and not all upset like I usually do. When I came back from work yesterday, all I really did was sleep and my bf was there with me. I slept for about 13 to 14 hours and felt really good after that. I felt like sleeping that long helped my brain rewire itself and helped my body get back to normal.
The stress that was bothering me was the whole me thinking these group of people that I hungout with were my friends, then this one person not ending up being my friend after almost 3 years, my bf having trouble with his friend of 5+ years and somehow me getting involved, there was a shooting at a local tv station and 2 news people I watched on tv died, me feeling anxious after that shooting and paranoid about everything, me working longer hours and moving to full time, my brain just couldnt take it anymore and I legit just shut down.
But, that sleep helped me alot. I feel like I can start healing now that I dont feel off balanced and stressed out.
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