my day

I met up with a lovely DS person tonight was great. She was so nice to chat to:). And yes we was both so so nervouse about meeting but it all turned out all fine in the end and chatted for few hours:) time flyed.  Now i am back at home sitting here thinking of all the things i could possibly do to myself. And thinking about the debt i am in and other stuff.  In a weeks time im of to devon with family on holiday. I hope it goes ok i know its gona be hard though as i dont like being away from home that long.  I got to see my ex bf tommorow to get my stuff of him im absolutly scared i dont wanna see him though:(. grrr i hope my mate calles for me once his around so then i got an excuse about i have to go lol i know its crawl but i just cant handel seeing him right now.