must we always been making calculus

I went to work today - and new ideas came to me...so it goes..

felt a bit gruff with the others there - and sloppy - but chocked it

up to the agression needed to get a job done and indeed I did a good 

thorough job...on the drive home I had auditory stuff - and I couldn't make

sense of it - tried but felt just dragged down -

came home and fixed some lunch - gave Blue some attention (I really need to be giving him

a lot more - he needs for his activity to be made for him and besides he only has this one bedroom

apartment to explore..)

Anyways- then showered and dressed - gave my Dad a call - tried to make the call about him

because usually he is so careful to be asking about me...it's only right the calls should be 

about him and about something rather than just me but about us and him too.

I caught my reflection in the bathroom mirror and sheesh I need to get into shape..

plus the broken nose and facial psoriasis isn't a good look. LOL I've got the cream - will put it

on tonight - just been kind of lazy about it...it goes away really quick with the cream.

So I ran an errand to get some coffee and gas. The Starbucks folks say my name and make banter

when I am there - they really get into it - not my scene.

Then I came home and just turned on the boob tube. Waiting for my therapy session at 1115a

I feel so damn sloppy - when younger I had such a sense of my aesthetic - my style - my 

sense of design and personal appearance and now I guess because I am aging I am becoming more

of a garden gnome LOL. Just pudgy worker who tries to make the day a little brighter with a little whistle :) .hehe

Anyways - writing this out helps - it's giving myself the attention and forum to talk about just what's on my mind.

I'll take that opportunity and try and make sense of my day rather than sublimate and do other things in a kind of denial

of myself. I can do both!!

I hope you guys are having a good day - IT'S TGIF!!!

xo

Mark