Chi finally apologized to me the other day and now things are leveling out little by little. I miss friends, any friends... friendship in general. I was supposed to meet my friend Neida the other day to go to lunch and hang out downtown. She initially came to Denver to go to a funeral, but when she got there she ended up needing time to console her friend who had just lost his mom, but that is totally understandable. I just simply get excited to be with my friends and I always end up getting ditched or hurt. I am still pissed off that Rachael hurt me so badly and she doesn't even know, or care. Today I am going to the museum, Body Worlds, with my mom. She has not seen it and it leaves Denver in less than a week.
I feel really frustrated for some reason and I can't seem to shake it. I think that it might be because of my financial situation. Its a mess I don't know what to do about it. I am also stressed about school. Tomorrow I go and it will be a long day because I have the and on top on my lecture. I am really scared and I don't know why. I failed the first exam that was given to us and that pissed me off. Especially since people who ever go to class get better grades than I do. I wish things made more sense to me. I don't want to keep taking xanax to relieve this stress. Since I am going to be at the museum this afternoon I want to talk to Katie, my volunteer coordinator, about what I am going to do with my hours.
So I better go,
Goodnight Moon.