much ado about a douche bag

I feel really fucking hurt right now. I sway back and forth between feeling hurt and pissed off. How do you say all of that to someone and just blow them off? What a fucking prick he is. I keep fighting the "should have"s. Like on top of that list is- I should have fucking known better. Anyone that's that affectionate that soon is always full of shit. You know- part of me blames the fucking media for making us feel like love at first site is a possibility. Unfortunately the blame game does nothing at all for us.

But if I'm honest w myself I think that he's not a prick- he just changed his mind. He got to know me and didn't like me anymore. Then as I say that I realize there is no way for someone to actually truly want me then change their minds so quick. Like I've always said- if it goes that quick then it wasn't ever there in the first place. But I mean this dude really laid it on thick. You know how many times he told me that I had it all- brains, beauty, and wit? A good handful of times. In one day he repeatedly called me his dream girl, said how beautiful I was, said how I'm what every man wants, how he's so excited about our date- how he hasn't been this excited in a long time, talked about our future, said he wanted to be my man, bla bla bla. It was just all bullshit.
He's just a liar.

I really need to take my own advice. Of course I want to believe someone's that into me- who doesn't? That's why I fell for it. Bc I'm a loving person w a lot to give. I'm lucky it ended this quick. It just hurts. That's all. And in time the hurt will heal and that's it.