moving sucks

So I'm doing a little better with the moving idea but it's triggering all kinds of things so its making it hard to get anything finished.  This weekend was really difficult seeing everyone that I am going to miss.  I am concerned about moving back in with Mom because she feels entitled to me taking care of her and I can barely take care of myself.  It's definately a challenge.  She is fully capable of taking care of herself and she works 4 days a week.  My step dad is great and he caters to her a lot, but I know that I will be asked to fulfill ridiculous requests (i.e., ice cream at 3 a.m.) and I can't do everything for her and straigten my own life out at the same time.  On top of all that I'm struggling with suicidal thoughts occasionally and adjustments to my meds.  My pdoc is awesome and I love her but I really wish she would put me on some kind of antidepressant too.  She doesn't want me manic but it would be a nice break from the depression.