Mourning my loss and coping with it

It is not easy coping with the loss of one's husband.  Yesterday was the worst day since he died on November 15, 2009 Sunday morning.  I drank a whole small bottle of wine.  i would not recommend this as the way to go.  I have a small hangover this morning but I am going out for lunch with a friend, which should help me.  I drink two glasses of milk and 3 cups of green tea.  Mourning sucks and is not very fun.  Having people in  your life helps a lot to get you out of the house or in my case an apartment.  Today lunch with Wendy.  Thursday out for a walk at the nature park with Blair, one of my brother Don's friends  I have nothing for Wednesday or Friday.  Anything is possible.  Most of the people in my life arrive late and like to do things on the spur of the moment.  I am a planner and like to plan ahead wherever possible.