Mourning and Sensitivity it is all in one package.
When you are mourning the loss of your loved one, it makes you sensitive to things or peoples feelings. I just want to scream. My friend Wendy and I are meeting this Thursday for breakfast at 9:30 a.m. but in my email I got the restaurant wrong. She phones me today about it. She sounded cross. I told her I know it is IHOP. Wendy wanted to know why I wanted to be home by noon. I want to be home for noon because my other friend Carol is taking me to Ikea so I can purchase a light. I don't drive and don't want to carry a light fixture on the bus. When I think about the conversation, it don't think it was Wendy's business but since she is my long time friend I told her. When I think about it, it bothers me. This is what I mean about being sensitive. I should just forget about it. I have more good days than bad but the last 3 days were bad ones for me and my mind just went screwy. Maybe because I am sending out resumes today and that is pressure in and of itself. It all adds to the grief. I haven't been sleeping well again and not eating much these last couple of days. It's got to be the grief. I just want to throw my hands up in the air and scream about all these things. Aaaaah! I miss Smokey so much and how am I suppose to be better just after 3 months. It's not right.