MOTNT middle of night thoughts

Its 1  am , I was sleeping since around 11pm. Then got jolted awake by MOTMTs. I'm starting to freak out, I only have 2/12 years to continue tto keep my living conditions. As soon as son turns 18 X takes back the house. It wouldn't be so scary, but when we spliit we had 3 dogs 2 cats, 2 of the dogs he brought home. Its now 3 dogs  3cats I found the 1 in the picture on the freeway and my son got a kitten this year. I recently lost the job I had, I can't find work for nothing, I lost about $20,000 when the market came crashing down which is really what I was depending on. I have a small saving, but it seems I'm having to dip into that lately. I don't know how I m ging to make it work..Time to really tighten my belt, I think I'm going to have to get a couple of roomates. Well what ever happens its not going to happen right now at 1 15 in the morning. I was oping that writing this would clear my head  alittle, I really felt like I was getting ready to have a paic attack. Well I'm going to try to get back to sleep.So Goodnight ALL..