Moste of us have real issues ect

Hi who or what ever you are or see your selves as being to me. One of the coments made by the recent un named person was ((some of us have real issues here.)). Well I think agreat deal of us have real issues ere & who can say what are not & who has none?. My last jurnal gives one good examle of tat fact. But here is another example In my profile I stated the nose bleed  senario in breif & the loss of my father ECT. Now Im goigto tell what I know about what happened to him. Back in 1965 Onmy dad's way to work my mum was going to work the oposite way As they left te house  walking down to the corner of the street My dadwas joking with my mum At te corner My mum said to him. You go that way  (POINTING rigt) & I go this way (POINTING Left)How litle did she know that it was to be for the last time?. Around 2pm that afternoon M mum was visited at her work by Police. She thought something had happened tome as I was in hospital not expected to live. The Officer said no Its you husbad. We was doing a favour for a friend workin on a fault with platform buffers in the Edinburgj Haymarket train staion sheds . There was a faul wit the signals  causing a engine to enter on the wrong line . The line my dad was on. There was an engine behinde my dad . The one comming in pushed that one forwards & my dad was chrused between the buffersof the train & the platform buffers. M mum was taken to the spot were he was layed out on the line She wanted to touch his head but the Police did not let her for fear of a shock as she has had 2 nervice breakdowns prior to meeting my dad She said he looks pease ful. They told her he would have felt No pain as it would have been quick. Prior to the accident My mum & dad had packed cases  planing a holiday but every time tey tried to open them they would NOT open On the day m dad was kiled My mum went back hope went to open the cases & they opened a easu as 1 2 3.. I was only 3 ears old wen he died. A bit like the wors to the Elton Jhon song Candle in the wind. (I would ave liked to have known you but i was just a kid) I was just a baby. My mum soon lost the house  put me in care & sleo out were wever she could for 2 years. With onl a dry roll & a pint of milk a da to live on. She kept a promis made between her & m dd. NO mater what one of tem servived if an thing should happen te serviver was to make shure I have a place to stay. The loss of a love one can pla a part in our lifes even from child hood. Te gap te missing peice of the jigsaw puzle.. It can  pla a part in our teeenage life & beyond. In a way my dad & mum are legends in my eyes but they are more than that. I do know that my dad held me as a baby. He would not take my old napies off but would put new ones on & bath me.. I wanted to know if he ever held me & I was told by my dear late mum that he di man times. I have no photoes of my dad Its not known why. He lost his dad when he was 3 & his mum when he was 27. SO I gues i was lucky to have had my mum around untill over 2 years ago.. Sometimes I can talk about my dad & it does not get to me but at other times it does. Greif is a personal thing  No one can say if or when some one should or will get over it.if ever. I know for this what it is like to los some one tragicaly & so one  in general curcomstances. So I do have some idea what it is like for other who have & other wh will. . Take care who or what ever you see your selves as being to me. I do hope now i have made my point clear.