morning mumbles
Good morning! I am making a run to Dulles this morning to pick up
a visiting parishioner shortly.
Do you ever have moments when you feel like 'too comfortable'?
Like you are supposed to have a destiny but you don't know what that is? Like the status quo must be wrong?
And do you feel badly about that? Like lacking?
Maybe it's an insight into how I think that I should have a sense of things
- like a pretty picture - rather than basing my decisions on something like
what my therapist said about her work in "wanting to do good work." A principle.
Maybe it's the way I was taught to think - that I had to know the final
destination before I got there??
Just breaking this down is helping me feel better. Blue wants attention
before I go. Just had coffee and I'm showered and dressed.
Sending peace and good vibes.
Mark
ps - it's weird that I feel so on edge with not keeping totally busy at something
productive or money making. Maybe that's a smart thing - because it means
I am focused on surviving - but also maybe a bit of good old fashioned
american puritan ethic. I don't know - have a great day!!
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Good morning! I hope the visiting parishioner is more comfortable with small talk than your last visitor. I'm know he/she will be so thankful for the ride. Enjoy your day!
Thanks Susan! It was a good trip!!
Have a good day as well!!
the trip to dulles went well.
on the way back I had such a great sense
of how grateful I am to have this experience.
I am here doing this with them
stop seeking and start finding.
it also gives me impetus and inspiration
to do more with my downtime here
instead of just getting caught up
in the magnificent peace and grace of the place
I have to fill in some forms
and little personal stuff like make the bed.
I also am in communication with my director
at the market to go and meet the bakery manager
on Tuesday at 11am.
I will set my sights on more.
I can hear my stepmom saying - 'I don't get what you actually do there?"
It's an honest if blunt question -
There's always things to be done - and again
I don't want to get frozen in the grace of it all
like a lazy part of the furnishings-
there's stuff to do -
as well, I'll start some creative stuff going.
I'm so glad that you're having a great day sweetie.... Woot!!... xo
Glad you had a good drive home from the airport.
Thanks you guys!!