morning doubts

I can't seem to shake this feeling that I'm an unbelievable failure at life. Its a huge deterrant for me. It stops me from doing things that would actually help me. Here's a list of all the people I've dedicated my life to taking care of that are no better off today then they were when I started- in fact all of them are worse. My mother, father, brother, and C. My ma is a drunk now- she wasn't thinking about my well being when she drank. She's never really been a mother to me- its been more like I've been the mother. She acts like a child most of the time. My father- a drunk, house falling down around him- keeps pushing forward on the same wrong track. All these people aren't better off- and then there's me.

Since I spent all my time and energy taking care of them I haven't taken care of me. I'm a lawyer- its my dream job. And yet I can't get to work in the morning bc I always feel like such a tremendous failure bc I haven't succeeded in saving my fucked up family. I won't let this beat me. The question is how? How do I stop feeling this way?