more upset

so jsut now before carlos left for work he gave me another list of people he came up with. then i noticed his mom didnt put his father or any of his fathers relatives down. carlos then said he doesn't know if his father could come. first that made me upset- i want him to be there. i have never met him, but i guess what happens happens because we dont have control of his eligibilty on getting a vtravel visa for the usa.  i feel gaby is completely disregarding carlos other family. i then told carlos that i dont feel the entire doyle family needs to come- we barely know them and they aren't our family. bottomline we got in an arguement over that. Crhis (carlos' mom's husband) has only been married to Gaby for 3 years and is not carlos' stepfather. All in all, Carlos said "your in a pissy mood and i'm not dealing with this crap.”
Then he told me to give him a kiss goodbye and i said you come here then. He always wants me to get up and give him a kiss. It’s like a command, like I have to do it. I don’t want to be controlled like that. He then said “ i'm leaving. bye".
 
I am beyond upset and cant stop crying. I just cant stop crying and don’t know what to do. I have a crew meeting to go to soon and I don’t give a fuck. I don’t want to go. I don’t want to do anything. It like there was a little ‘honeymoon’ period after leaving reflections, and now its gone.