Mood dip.
It was to be expected, once the initial grief has worn off in comes the misery to take its place. I knew it was coming but I didn't bank on it being quite so soon. To make matters worse, my sister had to have her pregnancy aborted today on health grounds, she is naturally devestated but I just cannot bring myself to phone her, I will try tomorrow but I feel totally out of my depth on this one, I just dont know what to say.
I slept this afternoon for the first time in ages, that is the first bad sign, soon comes the staying awake all night, followed by the wicked mood swings. I am mindful of where I am right now, I know what's coming, I hope that is enough to stop a full on crash into the abyss. I think I am rightly affraid.
Just feeling a little like a waste of space again, not good. That means I am replaying things in my head that are best left buried, or ignored, whichever you believe it to be.
I am thankful for my friends and family and I apologise for being something of a dick at times, I always apologise. Never makes it right though.
I slept this afternoon for the first time in ages, that is the first bad sign, soon comes the staying awake all night, followed by the wicked mood swings. I am mindful of where I am right now, I know what's coming, I hope that is enough to stop a full on crash into the abyss. I think I am rightly affraid.
Just feeling a little like a waste of space again, not good. That means I am replaying things in my head that are best left buried, or ignored, whichever you believe it to be.
I am thankful for my friends and family and I apologise for being something of a dick at times, I always apologise. Never makes it right though.
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just hang in there I lost both m ]y parents at aq young age andwent throught the stages of grief you will be ok it might be hasrd but it will pass the ones you know are always there..
hugs
Kay
Aww goodness. Sorry to hear about your sister :(
There isn\'t much you need to say to her, just tell her you love her.
Sounds like we are in a similar spot, I wish I had something smart to say but I suffer to find the words. But I\'m here, and I understand.
I cannot recall a single instance where you\'ve been a dick, so shushell. You are a great friend and, as you\'d say, a fantastic human bean :) I says it, so it\'s the truth.
xoxo