Monday was 3 months
I have reached that healthy stage of acceptance with my grief from losing the twins. I have come such a long way in the past month. Therapy has been really great and helped me along and I have found strength that I didn't even know I had. I will never forget my boys, or my loss but I am living again as I know they want me to be. I know they are looking down and watching over me and I want them to be proud of the woman they will call Mom when we meet again one day. I will be planting flowers in their memory on their due date, May 25th. I still have some moments where the emotion hits me like a ton of bricks and I can't help but cry, and I think that will always be a part of me but I am moving forward day by day and focusing on positive things in my life.
I am excited to say, my husband and I have agreed to TTC in May as well. I hope after all of our losses this next pregnancy will bring a new chapter for us! Our losses will never go away regardless of what's ahead that's for sure but we still want a healthy baby more than anything in this world and knowing that could be our reality one day makes me smile.
I am excited to say, my husband and I have agreed to TTC in May as well. I hope after all of our losses this next pregnancy will bring a new chapter for us! Our losses will never go away regardless of what's ahead that's for sure but we still want a healthy baby more than anything in this world and knowing that could be our reality one day makes me smile.
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This journal made my heart smile.
While no one would expect you to be at any particular phase at any particular time (as each person\'s path is their own), I feel so glad for you when you say that therapy is making a significant difference for you and you have found a new strength and that there has been so much momentum in the past month.
I can relate to what you say about the emotions hitting you like a ton of bricks still from time to time. This still happens to me out of the blue from time to time, even a year later. Even though most days are now \"normal\".
I love that you are planting flowers in your boys\' memory on their due date.
And I love that you are excited about TTC again in a couple months.
Thinking of you and wishing the very best for you.