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   Yesterday was so nice. Even though J was at work and I had to stay at home with the little one, I felt FINE! We played some games, I got some things done....it was nice.   Then today....again, upon waking, there's the rolling stomach. (I had this all last week, starting very badly on Sunday including a seizure, then SLOWLY getting better until feeling okay Friday, and like I said, good on Saturday). Today it's shakes, clamminess, waves of That Feeling along with waves of Pre-Seizure Feeling. Tired, sleepy, no tolerance for my little one. Oh, there, now cramps, too.Sore muscles, backache. Emotionally there's anger, frustration, need to be mothered by someone. Mentally, there's the worry about...well, about not being in control, not being able to really DO something about this to make it go away NOW. Needy..emotionally needy. J said he'd come home from work if I needed it. But money's not good; I'd be grateful but at the same time, feel really guilty if he had to come home early just because of me.    Would distraction work? If I threw myself into some project, would that distract myself enough? But I feel like SHIT! I don't feel like starting anything. I dont even want to do the simple things that I should (thank GOODNESS I did the floor last night).   What can I do to stop this day from turning into menopause-obsessed hell? I'm tired, but I'm too anxious to go to sleep (and it's hot, besides). I don't know. I don't know. I'm shaking. So tired and sore. This is f***ed. I hate it.I hate it.