Mixed feelings.

Thanks to the new medicine I haven't been having much trouble with flashbacks, and the dissociations have been less intense. However, I now find myself having mixed feelings about all this. I'm glad things have improved, but I still feel alone in a sense. It's a slightly frustrating kind of lonesome feeling too.

It kinda feels like I've finally stopped falling and hit the ground, but I'm left the pick myself up any everyone passing by says nothing about having fallen and hit the ground. It's frustrating having gone through so much and not having someone outside of this site to turn to for support or comfort. Now I feel like I have all these complicated feelings getting bottled up inside me and I don't even know how to express/vent them.