Mixed Emotions

Hi,
I 'm a very private person but I would rather be anonymous speaker than a person without a voice.So it  here  it:
This is the first time in my life that I have tried to get pregnant. There's been 3 pregnancy before but all ended up in miscarriages.
I have seen 3 GYN and I know for a fact ....that I have fibroids and at least 1 fibroid in my uterus.I take fibroid clear and recently started using Alka-Green. I am dead scaried of operations and being in debt (no money).I have read that even after surgery fibroids can grow back.
I decide to join a group because I felt terrible because I have been a live in nanny,babysitter and day care center volunteer.Now I am experiencing issues with having children..... of my own.
Any advice is better than no advice or even sharing a story of your own may be helpful or even words of inspiration will help me to avoid feeling so alone.