Mistakes

I learn the hard way about things.  Nothing comes easy to me that is for sure.  People can advise me but do you think I listen.  No.  I have to thru fire to get to the other side.  When the love of my life Smokey died in 2009, I met DH in 2010.  It is a huge mistake to jump into a relationship after you lost someone.  I am a softy.  DH and I broke up in 2013 and got back together in 2014.  DH went on disability for awhile but then was cut off.  I felt sorry for him and let him move in with me.  DH got a buy-out from his company.  His company did not want him back again.  His money is running out, has not made an effort to look for work and spends his time watching TV & drinking beer.  Needless to say I am unhappy and would like him to leave but do not have it in me to kick him out.