Missing Smokey after 7 years

I will have to sell my apartment in 1 1/2 to 4 years.  Its up to finding how much the developers would pay for the two apartment complexes so I will probably be have to sell down the road.  I did not realize what an emotional connection I have to this place.  I moved in with my Smokey in 2000.  He passed in 2009.  I have lived here ever since.  I was crying on the couch just now realizing how much I miss my late-Smokey.  I don't think I will ever have a heart felt connection with anyone else.  I have a companion now who lives with me but heart will probably always belong to my late-Smokey.  I have not met anyone who knocked my socks off like he did.  Things could change.  One never knows as the impossible can happen.  Will keep you posted.  It has been a long time since I wrote in this journal.  I hope everyone else is doing okay.