Missing My Soul Mate

My Dear Paul,
It is going on 15 months since I lost you and it doesn't seem to be getting any easier. Every where I am, I still see you. There are still places I can't seem to get myself to go, or things I still am not able to watch, because they are what we done and watched together. No matter how busy I stay, I can't seem to stop my longing to have you here. I know it is not possible. The nights and mornings are still the hardest for me, it was always our time.
I don't believe I will ever get over losing you, and you will always be in my heart and soul.
Paul, I love you so very much, you are with me in spirit.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zrK5u5W8afc

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deleted_user

I love that song! I am sorry you are having a rough time. It will be 4 years for me in a few days and I keep trying to find my place in life... it is hard to make a new life while we long for our life we had. Some days I think I am doing so well and then a song or a memory pops in my head and the longing for him is very strong again! I think we will always long to have them back and it will always be hard but we can do this we will survive and we will make them proud. Hugs!!!
lovelos
lovelos

I am so sorry for the loss of your dear husband Paul. All I can do is think of what Larry and I had and what we had planned for our future. I am not sure how we move forward and find some joy.........but just know I am thinking and praying for you and hoping we find our way, hugs Lu Ann
deleted_user
deleted_user

I think you are right...we never get over the loss but maybe someday we will get used to it. Hugs, Nancy
KipB
KipB

Beautiful journal. Hugs, Kip.
deleted_user
deleted_user

The mornings and the nights - yes, so true. Big HUGS, Sue