Missing My Soul Mate

My Dear Paul,
It is going on 15 months since I lost you and it doesn't seem to be getting any easier. Every where I am, I still see you. There are still places I can't seem to get myself to go, or things I still am not able to watch, because they are what we done and watched together. No matter how busy I stay, I can't seem to stop my longing to have you here. I know it is not possible. The nights and mornings are still the hardest for me, it was always our time.
I don't believe I will ever get over losing you, and you will always be in my heart and soul.
Paul, I love you so very much, you are with me in spirit.
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