missing memories

Ok, now in order for this to make since please read my very first journal entry. http://www.dailystrength.org/peopl... I hope this link works, if not let me know and i'll just post the whole entry here. Now understand that most of the entire event is etched in my brain, and there is no question as to weather or not anything that i wrote actually happened or not. It's rather that there is a whole in my story (even though i know it to be all fact). The whole i believe comes from a small lost segment of memory, and that concerns me greatly. You remember the part where he makes me swim through the pig pond? Well when i FINALY go home i very much remember being dry, or more to the point my cloths being dry. Whith out slime or pig deffication. My mother also never questioned my state of clenliness. So if i swam through the pond but my cloths were still dry the only assumption that i can make (and this is only an assumption i do not remember thsi at all), is that i must have taken my cloths off. I dont remember taking them off or putting them back on. but i can not otherwise account for having dry cloths. If this really happend... did something else happen besides swiming across the pond? I mean i remember the sexual assault vividly, but was there more? I just dont know.