Missed Work Today
I woke up this morning feeling like crap. I had a migraine and my IBS was acting up again. I just didn't feel like going to work. I also was super tired. I woke up to my alarm, but I wanted to go back to sleep so I did. I took some Tylenol and that helped with my headache, but I drank it with coffee to get it to work faster and that did a number on my poor intestines. I think I need to take a break from the coffee, but I don't want to. I like having my morning coffee. It sets the tone for a good day. It's a mental thing. I don't want to give that up, but if it keeps on hurting my stomach I don't see myself having a choice. That would be a sad day to have to give up my coffee. Anyway, I just felt so bad today, even sleeping in until 12:30 I didn't feel well so I called in sick. I was hoping that having an hour more of sleep would help, but it didn't
I slept like crap last night. I kept waking up for up to 30 minutes at a time. I was having crazy dreams that I don't remember anymore. I know one had to do with watching horror movies with a bunch of guys and trying not to be scared. Some of the guys were guys I liked in the past, others were just dream people. I remember two of the guys fighting over me and then getting mad at me for some reason. I don't know... it was just random and crazy. I was waking up every couple hours. I felt like I hadn't taken my pills, but I had. I don't know why I got the bad night's sleep.. I didn't do anything different than I had the past couple of nights. I don't remember if I took a klonopin or not. I was pretty out of it when I was waking up. I had to use the bathroom a couple of times, too. I just couldn't get comfy and in sleep mode.
Mood today was okay, even though I wasn't feeling well. I got to spend a bit of time with Geo, but most of the day I spent in bed in pain. I did do some of my exercises, though, and took out the trash. Our house has a ton of those little flies you get from the trash. We tried keeping the trash can lid closed, but that didn't help much. I take out the trash every couple of days, so it's not like we are dirty or anything. I just don't know how to get rid of these flies. They are annoying, flying everywhere. I try killing them, but more just appear. I think some of them might be coming from outside, since our front door isn't properly insulated. There are a couple holes on the side of the door where it meets the wall and bugs get in. I tried talking to the apartment complex people about it, but nothing ever came of it. I have tried to get them to fix a bunch of things, and they haven't. They keep on sending me invoices saying it's fixed when nothing was done.
I have to decide what to do with my fingernails. I got acrylics put on when I was in LA, and they are starting to need a fill. I don't know if I want to keep them or not. It's a hassle trying to type and other stuff, but I like them and think they are pretty. I just don't know if they are worth the hassle. I don't like long nails, and while these are pretty short for acrylics, they are long to me. They get caught in the keyboard when I type. I keep hitting the wrong keys since they slide over the keyboard. I just think that they make my hands look good. I don't normally paint my nails since they are so weak that the polish just flakes off within a day or two. They make me feel girly, too. I have to decide by this weekend if we get the car to keep them or not.
Food today was good.... I was a bit low on my calorie range, but not by much. I did end up having milk last night which put me in my calorie range. I drank a ton of water yesterday and managed to lose that 3 pounds that I had gained in water weight. I'm back to 225.5 pounds now. I think I'm scared to drop below 225 since that's the lowest I've been since I've known Geo. I know he's not going to leave me if I lose weight, unless I change and become an ass. I do wish he would try and lose weight with me, and I know that going to the doctor was a big thing for him since he didn't lose much weight even though he should have. I should have him start tracking his calories, but I don't think he wants to do it. I don't blame him... it's a scary thing to change and start doing, especially in the beginning. Stress today was low... I felt bad for calling in sick to work, but I don't want to go if I'm going to be in the bathroom the whole time. I guess I have to see what tomorrow brings. I have Monday off, so we will see how the weekend goes.
I slept like crap last night. I kept waking up for up to 30 minutes at a time. I was having crazy dreams that I don't remember anymore. I know one had to do with watching horror movies with a bunch of guys and trying not to be scared. Some of the guys were guys I liked in the past, others were just dream people. I remember two of the guys fighting over me and then getting mad at me for some reason. I don't know... it was just random and crazy. I was waking up every couple hours. I felt like I hadn't taken my pills, but I had. I don't know why I got the bad night's sleep.. I didn't do anything different than I had the past couple of nights. I don't remember if I took a klonopin or not. I was pretty out of it when I was waking up. I had to use the bathroom a couple of times, too. I just couldn't get comfy and in sleep mode.
Mood today was okay, even though I wasn't feeling well. I got to spend a bit of time with Geo, but most of the day I spent in bed in pain. I did do some of my exercises, though, and took out the trash. Our house has a ton of those little flies you get from the trash. We tried keeping the trash can lid closed, but that didn't help much. I take out the trash every couple of days, so it's not like we are dirty or anything. I just don't know how to get rid of these flies. They are annoying, flying everywhere. I try killing them, but more just appear. I think some of them might be coming from outside, since our front door isn't properly insulated. There are a couple holes on the side of the door where it meets the wall and bugs get in. I tried talking to the apartment complex people about it, but nothing ever came of it. I have tried to get them to fix a bunch of things, and they haven't. They keep on sending me invoices saying it's fixed when nothing was done.
I have to decide what to do with my fingernails. I got acrylics put on when I was in LA, and they are starting to need a fill. I don't know if I want to keep them or not. It's a hassle trying to type and other stuff, but I like them and think they are pretty. I just don't know if they are worth the hassle. I don't like long nails, and while these are pretty short for acrylics, they are long to me. They get caught in the keyboard when I type. I keep hitting the wrong keys since they slide over the keyboard. I just think that they make my hands look good. I don't normally paint my nails since they are so weak that the polish just flakes off within a day or two. They make me feel girly, too. I have to decide by this weekend if we get the car to keep them or not.
Food today was good.... I was a bit low on my calorie range, but not by much. I did end up having milk last night which put me in my calorie range. I drank a ton of water yesterday and managed to lose that 3 pounds that I had gained in water weight. I'm back to 225.5 pounds now. I think I'm scared to drop below 225 since that's the lowest I've been since I've known Geo. I know he's not going to leave me if I lose weight, unless I change and become an ass. I do wish he would try and lose weight with me, and I know that going to the doctor was a big thing for him since he didn't lose much weight even though he should have. I should have him start tracking his calories, but I don't think he wants to do it. I don't blame him... it's a scary thing to change and start doing, especially in the beginning. Stress today was low... I felt bad for calling in sick to work, but I don't want to go if I'm going to be in the bathroom the whole time. I guess I have to see what tomorrow brings. I have Monday off, so we will see how the weekend goes.
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IBS sucks! Been down that road before! For me yellow cheese is a major NO NO!
As for Geo and tracking calories it seems that most men are not open to doing that. Think about the No S Diet...No sweets, No Seconds except on S days....such as Sat or Sun or Special days.
i have heard that ibs is very painful, i am so sorry you are suffering and you were right to call in. sometimes i get crazy nights like you with the strangest dreams, mine started when i started taking cymbalta, the really bad nightmares and just plain strange. please dont get offended, but my opion on the nails is not to bother filling them. you spoke of many resons why not to, though they do make one feel feminime, but on top of your resons why not to is also the finicial reaon, can you afford to keep doing it? can geo do or is willing to do any exercise? that would surely help the weight lose as you know. could he possibly join forces with you? i know you want to please him but rally try and stop the soda and sweets and high fat meals, it wont be easy and geo wont like it, but if you do it slowly maybe it would be ok, just a thought. have a great day and i hope your feeling better.