Miss You Guys
I want to start out my journal by saying I love you all and I carry you in my heart everyday. I may not journal alot, send alot of hugs but do know that I reading and sometimes I just don't know what to say. But I do love you all.
John and the storm. In my last journal John left that Sunday morning after the storm. Thank goodness in worked in Kinston which is only 30 minutes from where we live, so he was home every night. The bad side to that is he would get up and leave at 6 every morning. Tell me he loves me and bye and that would be it until 10-11 at night. By then I was ready for bed. I really missed him. I felt like we just passed each other. He was finally released from the storm work on the 2nd. My brothers, nephew and I left that day for White Lake, NC. It had been years since we had been. John was able to join us on Saturday. We returned home on Labor Day. I really enjoyed that weekend. Yes I said enjoyed. Still missed my Josh but enjoyed it. John's birthday was the 6th. He worked 6 days last week and has to work 7 this week. He is so exhausted. I just don't how he can keep going.
Josh's 21st Birthday is coming up in October. We are having a birthday party for him @ his favorite Mexican restaurant. I have invited everybody I know. I want them to remember is birthday. I wished you all lived close by so you could attend. I wish he was here to celebrate. I miss him so much. He is in my heart and will remain there until the day I die.When I die who will make sure he is not forgotten?????
John and I have to travel to TN for his family reunion on October 7th which is the day after Josh's birthday. I do not like to go. I don't want to go. John knows this. His family (brothers and siter) are not that close. We do not see them here so I should I go to TN to see them. We used to see his Sister all the time and I thought we were close, but she has stopped coming by, no phone calls no nothing. No shows at clean up days for Josh. But, in TN she is queen bee. I love her but I just don't understand. I don't like going because it is right at Josh's Birthday. I just don't like it. Well, my husband has informed me today that it will be a Rhonda and John weekend. Lord knows that is what we need. I miss him and us.
Mama surgery is scheduled again next Thursday the 22nd. Keep her in your prayers. I love you all.
My Joshie Pooh, As the day comes closer for your 21st birthday the more my heart is breaking. I try to imagine what you would be doing with your life. Would you still have that thick black hair? What would you being doing?????? I wish I could turn the clock back but I can't. I wish I could do alot of things but can't. Just know Josh, you are my heart. I love you deeply. Love Mama
John and the storm. In my last journal John left that Sunday morning after the storm. Thank goodness in worked in Kinston which is only 30 minutes from where we live, so he was home every night. The bad side to that is he would get up and leave at 6 every morning. Tell me he loves me and bye and that would be it until 10-11 at night. By then I was ready for bed. I really missed him. I felt like we just passed each other. He was finally released from the storm work on the 2nd. My brothers, nephew and I left that day for White Lake, NC. It had been years since we had been. John was able to join us on Saturday. We returned home on Labor Day. I really enjoyed that weekend. Yes I said enjoyed. Still missed my Josh but enjoyed it. John's birthday was the 6th. He worked 6 days last week and has to work 7 this week. He is so exhausted. I just don't how he can keep going.
Josh's 21st Birthday is coming up in October. We are having a birthday party for him @ his favorite Mexican restaurant. I have invited everybody I know. I want them to remember is birthday. I wished you all lived close by so you could attend. I wish he was here to celebrate. I miss him so much. He is in my heart and will remain there until the day I die.When I die who will make sure he is not forgotten?????
John and I have to travel to TN for his family reunion on October 7th which is the day after Josh's birthday. I do not like to go. I don't want to go. John knows this. His family (brothers and siter) are not that close. We do not see them here so I should I go to TN to see them. We used to see his Sister all the time and I thought we were close, but she has stopped coming by, no phone calls no nothing. No shows at clean up days for Josh. But, in TN she is queen bee. I love her but I just don't understand. I don't like going because it is right at Josh's Birthday. I just don't like it. Well, my husband has informed me today that it will be a Rhonda and John weekend. Lord knows that is what we need. I miss him and us.
Mama surgery is scheduled again next Thursday the 22nd. Keep her in your prayers. I love you all.
My Joshie Pooh, As the day comes closer for your 21st birthday the more my heart is breaking. I try to imagine what you would be doing with your life. Would you still have that thick black hair? What would you being doing?????? I wish I could turn the clock back but I can't. I wish I could do alot of things but can't. Just know Josh, you are my heart. I love you deeply. Love Mama
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