Miss You Guys
I want to start out my journal by saying I love you all and I carry you in my heart everyday. I may not journal alot, send alot of hugs but do know that I reading and sometimes I just don't know what to say. But I do love you all.
John and the storm. In my last journal John left that Sunday morning after the storm. Thank goodness in worked in Kinston which is only 30 minutes from where we live, so he was home every night. The bad side to that is he would get up and leave at 6 every morning. Tell me he loves me and bye and that would be it until 10-11 at night. By then I was ready for bed. I really missed him. I felt like we just passed each other. He was finally released from the storm work on the 2nd. My brothers, nephew and I left that day for White Lake, NC. It had been years since we had been. John was able to join us on Saturday. We returned home on Labor Day. I really enjoyed that weekend. Yes I said enjoyed. Still missed my Josh but enjoyed it. John's birthday was the 6th. He worked 6 days last week and has to work 7 this week. He is so exhausted. I just don't how he can keep going.
Josh's 21st Birthday is coming up in October. We are having a birthday party for him @ his favorite Mexican restaurant. I have invited everybody I know. I want them to remember is birthday. I wished you all lived close by so you could attend. I wish he was here to celebrate. I miss him so much. He is in my heart and will remain there until the day I die.When I die who will make sure he is not forgotten?????
John and I have to travel to TN for his family reunion on October 7th which is the day after Josh's birthday. I do not like to go. I don't want to go. John knows this. His family (brothers and siter) are not that close. We do not see them here so I should I go to TN to see them. We used to see his Sister all the time and I thought we were close, but she has stopped coming by, no phone calls no nothing. No shows at clean up days for Josh. But, in TN she is queen bee. I love her but I just don't understand. I don't like going because it is right at Josh's Birthday. I just don't like it. Well, my husband has informed me today that it will be a Rhonda and John weekend. Lord knows that is what we need. I miss him and us.
Mama surgery is scheduled again next Thursday the 22nd. Keep her in your prayers. I love you all.
My Joshie Pooh, As the day comes closer for your 21st birthday the more my heart is breaking. I try to imagine what you would be doing with your life. Would you still have that thick black hair? What would you being doing?????? I wish I could turn the clock back but I can't. I wish I could do alot of things but can't. Just know Josh, you are my heart. I love you deeply. Love Mama
John and the storm. In my last journal John left that Sunday morning after the storm. Thank goodness in worked in Kinston which is only 30 minutes from where we live, so he was home every night. The bad side to that is he would get up and leave at 6 every morning. Tell me he loves me and bye and that would be it until 10-11 at night. By then I was ready for bed. I really missed him. I felt like we just passed each other. He was finally released from the storm work on the 2nd. My brothers, nephew and I left that day for White Lake, NC. It had been years since we had been. John was able to join us on Saturday. We returned home on Labor Day. I really enjoyed that weekend. Yes I said enjoyed. Still missed my Josh but enjoyed it. John's birthday was the 6th. He worked 6 days last week and has to work 7 this week. He is so exhausted. I just don't how he can keep going.
Josh's 21st Birthday is coming up in October. We are having a birthday party for him @ his favorite Mexican restaurant. I have invited everybody I know. I want them to remember is birthday. I wished you all lived close by so you could attend. I wish he was here to celebrate. I miss him so much. He is in my heart and will remain there until the day I die.When I die who will make sure he is not forgotten?????
John and I have to travel to TN for his family reunion on October 7th which is the day after Josh's birthday. I do not like to go. I don't want to go. John knows this. His family (brothers and siter) are not that close. We do not see them here so I should I go to TN to see them. We used to see his Sister all the time and I thought we were close, but she has stopped coming by, no phone calls no nothing. No shows at clean up days for Josh. But, in TN she is queen bee. I love her but I just don't understand. I don't like going because it is right at Josh's Birthday. I just don't like it. Well, my husband has informed me today that it will be a Rhonda and John weekend. Lord knows that is what we need. I miss him and us.
Mama surgery is scheduled again next Thursday the 22nd. Keep her in your prayers. I love you all.
My Joshie Pooh, As the day comes closer for your 21st birthday the more my heart is breaking. I try to imagine what you would be doing with your life. Would you still have that thick black hair? What would you being doing?????? I wish I could turn the clock back but I can't. I wish I could do alot of things but can't. Just know Josh, you are my heart. I love you deeply. Love Mama
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My prayers are with you mother for a successful surgery. Sending you hugs and prayers for peace. Terry
I hope your Mom\'s Surgery goes well. Keeping you in my thoughts and prayers
Good to hear the update from you and to know you you are \"enjoying\" the company of family and friends. It is always hard to say that we are actually enjoying something ...as if it is betraying our children...who are having the time of their eternal lives....the birthday will be a wonderful way to remember Josh.
It is always good to have some \"date\" time set aside with our hubs...it gives you something to look forward to. I hope all goes well for your mother next week. God bless and don\'t stay away so long....love, dale...brandon\'s mom
welcome new friend. josh must be your son who passed away. i,am so sorry. i ost my daughter in 2003 almost 9 years. and it has changed me forever. my marriage almost broke up it still is not the same nothing is. but all you can do is get up everyday and go about your day. there will be good days and bad days. my whole family is dead i only have sister left. and we are,nt that close but i do hve dogs that bring me love and joy rottweilers, both have dysplasia an old border collie and a fat little cha wawa spikey doodle. i walk alot it really helps me and i have always exercised love it. good endorphins helps with stress. well have to close now i write alot not chat so please lets write have a good day. hugs zzz
\"When I die who will make sure he is not forgotten?????\" I think this all of the time. There is no one else. We will be one of those spots in the cemetery that is terribly neglected, no flowers, no halloween pumpkins or thanksgiving turkeys, no christmas, let alone birthdays. My husband and I are having kind of a rough patch right now but hope springs eternal and I hope we can weather this storm. I am so glad you have made sure people to make sure to remember...... BIG HUGS Matt\'s Mom Mary
Good to hear from you. I don\'t get on as often as I used too but it\'s good to read and hear from familiar friends. I love mexican food and I will be celebrating with you in spirit from the miles away. I\'m so glad you \"enjoyed\" your weekend. It feels so good to enjoy things again. I know I don\'t ever take a happy moment for granted anymore. I hope the reunion will be bearable and hopefully even better than that. Be safe and big hugs. Lov Robin
Rhonda, I\'ve been thinking about you. Josh is your heart and he is yours... he will never be forgotten ever. Oh, dear John, so exhausted! Please give him a hug from me and save a huge one for yourself. I wish we could all be there too for the birthday celebration because I\'m with Robin and just love mexican food. Special prayers for your mama and please let us know how she is and your heart just shines dear Rhonda. Anyone who has ever met you can feel it. Just lots of deep breathing and sighs to get you through the reunion time. Love you my special friend. Heart to Heart always. XO Joanie
It would be a real hhot to helpce,ebrate Josh\'s 21st... Oh I so wish we were close. Have a great weekend,,,you deserve it...so glad John is safe and home..
Rhonda, even though John has been kept busy, I\'m glad to hear he wasn\'t too far away from home and able to come home every night. I wish we could be there with you too to celebrate Josh\'s 21st birthday. I\'m sure it will be a wonderful celebration of his life. I know how much you miss him! Where in TN will you be? I will keep your mama in my prayers....please let us know how she is. Love & hugs, Kim
Hey my friend...I am always so glad to hear form you. And, I think of John everytime the trees come down somewhere...I am sure you miss him so much during those bad weather periods. Hugs to you as you approach Josh\'s birthday...love you...Karen
I love you, Dear Rhonda! I hope that your mom\'s sx goes well this month and that you can find some enjoyment at the reunion next month. I have found it difficult to attend even my own family\'s functions. Hugs, Belinda
I always \"feel\" you here Rhonda. Will be thinking of you and Josh and sending lots of love on his birthday. The plans you\'ve made sound perfect. OH how I understand the \"who will remember to remember Kala after I\'m gone?\"....a sad thought... Love you my friend, and love to John too.
Hello Rhonda, I know you are missing Josh and will forever and the milestone birthdays are very hard. I understand. Much love and prayers for your mom, Linda