Miss my Smokey still after all this time.

I miss my Smokey still after all this time.  It's been one year and five months.  I was missing him this morning and crying at my own personal loss of Smokey.  I don't know how I can go on anymore as I miss him so much.  I will go on but it's not the same without Smokey in my life.  I have a lot of good people in my life.  I have my faith in God.  God will never leave me nor forsake me.  I know all these things to be true but I still miss my Smokey.  Dave is a good man but I still miss my Smokey.  We are all unique and one of a kind.  No one can replace Smokey.  
I have to go to  job interview this morning.  I have to dry my tears.  My mood is still one of loss but I still will go because I need a job.  I am trying to dry up the tears, watch TV to get a little cheer up and then get dressed.  
Our lives are not the way that we wanted them to be for ourselves.  The loss made a huge impact in our lives which we are still healing from it all.  Time is the best healer. I have come a long way since Smokey died.  I still miss him so very much.  It's not that I am thinking about him.  I feel the huge whole in my heart which leads to tears and then I think of my life with Smokey.  It is this huge overwhelming grief in my heart, which leads me to cry and that leads me to think of my late-Smokey.  It starts with a sadness of my soul and spirit.  It's weird.  Have any of you felt that way or have gone through this experience yourselves.
All the best from Diane Baillie