Miss him, but in a different way

My love for him hasn't gone away..If yesterday I was angry I now realise how much I truly miss him. It is however in a softer way. I miss him but it doesn't hurt so much anymore. I feel like crying but the pain isn't acute.
 
He is from my past now. I miss him like I miss my childhood, like I miss something beautiful that happened to me, that is no longer here and will never be again. It's his memory that is left now. No hope for the future. Just nostalgia for things that once were.
How strange his face looks now in pictures...How far...
 
Losing a love is so final, it's forever. You know that one day you'll meet your friends and relatives again, maybe in Heavens. But never a lover.
 
Oh God..I could go through all this pain again if I could relive those months at the beginning...