Miscarrying--warning some language

Well, after all this again, I am probably miscarrying. I have had some cramping and this morning with a BM I had vaginal bleeding. Brown, red. I am sooo devastated. I can't believe that this would happen again. I should have known, once again, that this process cannot be this easy. As I type this I am having pains in lower abdomen, similar to menstral cramps. This is FUCKING BULL SHIT and I look like a FUCKING moron again--telling my family I am pregnant and miscarrying shortly after that AGAIN! I will lay in bed today but I am sure that its over and its just a matter of time. fuckfuckfuckfuck