Misery
My life is pure misery. I hate every second of it. I hate sleeping in my car, I hate spending every day at the library. I hate the miserable heat that drives me to seek shelter. I hate not having good food to eat. I envy people who don't have to work and still have a place to live so badly that it physically hurts. I wish I'd never been born. I hate all the horrific memories I have of this life. I have never had a happy day in 53 years. And most of all I hate God who made up this plan for my life. He could have given me to parents who loved me and planned a happy life for me, but He didn't. And I hate Him so badly for that. I am in utter hell.
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I don\'t know what to say but your welcome to drive to st. louis and stay with me....hugs
Just gotta keep looking for ways to make things better-be it with charities-changing locations to find new charities...you have to help yourself before others can help you
Where are you at? There are homeless shelters, soup kitchens, and churches everywhere that will help you. If not my town has all of these.
Do you drink at all?? A.A. is a great place to find a meal, support, clothing, whatever you may need.....even housing. Waiting for you response.
Only you can decide how to live your life.
I guess I could say a lot of things to you but I won\'t. I will merely say thing to you: I care about you. I have never met you and I don\'t know all your life story but I care. You are a human being and tomorrow is the first day of the rest of your life. I hope you chose to pick yourself up, make yourself a set of goals and get after the life you can give yourself. Don\'t worry about the past. Make some good memories in your future. Hugs, Eve
You are wasting your time hating God and being angry at him. It makes no impression on him whatsoever because that is the default emotion of humanity. Loving him is what gets his ear, not just asking him for things and expecting an answer, but really loving him. Few people do that because real life is never satisfying for very long, even for those who have everything, so it\'s God\'s fault. He isn\'t going to kill you for hating him because he\'d have to wipe out all of us then. Don\'t know what his plan is. Just saying, God\'s always waiting for people to turn away from their wrath and toward him. Don\'t know why. Don\'t really care anymore.