Mind and body F##ked

I missed him when it ended.
The last day. The day it turned violent. I was scared and alone. My brother came to me. He spread my legs,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,
 
I felt so trapped, I felt that was all I was good for. I thought I would have to keep doing this forever. I was so hurt, physically and mentally. I felt hopeless and broken.
 
Then I felt tossed aside
 
So confusing.