middle of the night again.

.....here come the hugs, c'mon in, sit a spell.......

middle of the night time. gave up trying to sleep, now i'm making soup.  and pork chops.  yes, at the same time.  doing that thing where i cook in advance of the days to come.  wishing i could've slept through the night.  but hey, you can't always get what you want.

started with two containers of organic veggie broth, i hate to say it, but i don't much like the smell.  sigh, hope the veggies will up the flavor overall.  .....took a quick break to put the pork chops in the oven.....the stovetop is a MESS.  gonna take some scrubbing later......bummer dude!

i wanted lots of veggies in this soup, so i added fresh snap peas, raw carrots & celery, cabbage, baby bella mushrooms and water chestnuts.  not sure if or how this will turn out.  sort of wishing now that i'd just picked up one container of my favorite chinese soup and called it a day.  but it's too late now.......time to commit!

i made it to Good Friday service, it lasted about 40 minutes.....very quick.  but nice.......sat next to Susan.  I met her once......didn't remember her name, but remembered her face.  I remembered her with long silver hair in a thick braid......now it was short.  We chatted, since I'd last seen her she'd gone through cancer......chemo/radiation/lost her hair/regained her hair......and for some reason based on the location of the cancer in her throat they had to pull her teeth.  I'm not familiar with this, but what an ordeal she has gone through.  Her hair grew in nice and thick.....but she misses her long hair.  Luckily she says it grows fast.......she was a bit self conscious about not having teeth.........as she explained, neither Medicare or her insurance or anything medical will help her offset the cost of false teeth.  my goodness..........i've been caught up in what can i do, how can i help........is there a way to raise money for this nice lady?  this church is very small, modest, not a ton of resources, so it doesn't seem reasonable to turn to them for money answers, but maybe there is a way to raise money for Susan online or via a local fundraiser?  i don't know if there is anything available, but how cruel to have lost her ability to chew, her lovely smile........my heart goes out to her.  Lots to pray over and ponder.  frustrates me that i don't have a big pile of hidden treasure in the back  yard to dig up to help her with.

the soup is bubbling away......the chops are baking.  my tummy is rumbling and rio is meowing waaaay too much.  5:19 am.  now i have to stay up til the soup is done.  it's a lot of soup, i can freeze half definitely! 

i watched White Collar on Netflix, it's about a handsome criminal who finally gets caught by a NY FBI agent.  the rest of the story if about how the criminal helps the FBI solve white collar crime.  there are more holes in the scripts .......so many that it can really wreck it for a person with a smidge of a brain......and yet i liked the characters, so i watched the whole thing.  then i watched a couple of docs to improve my mind.......one on human trafficking in india, one about Tap Dancing all over the World.......there was another one but i got nuttin.  the one on human trafficking was led by Lindsay Lohan of all people......she is not exactly the best interviewer.  She got teary often during her time with the children.......which is understandable, you'd have to be made of stone not to grieve what these children go through.  the tap dancing doc was pretty interesting.......there was a great quote but again i can't remember it. something about how ....oh shoot, i thought i could research it but the doc "Tap World" didn't get enough hype that anyone captured the quote, if i want it  i'll have to sift through the film again.  booo hiss.............one more reason why i need to write things down in the moment. 

one quote that i do remember from this little film?  that dance should be about the need to express, not impress........which can be applied to so many things in life........as i watched this film i had a little daydream, i was a skater for a very long time and while i watched this film i visualised myself back in a rink......going backwards.  nothing like the speed and grace of a younger stronger girl, but the feeling was there for just a moment.......and then i wondered if i could......go skate with help, but i know the kids would say NO!!!!!!!!  time to clean up and go to bed.  love ya, ruthie