Messages

So I sent him a message. "how are you?". Simple as that. Well, the truth behind this message was more pathetic. I was still hoping, can you believe this? i was hoping he might still have feelings, I don't know.
He politely replied and we politely exchanged a few more messages..That's all..This hurts more than the silence. Especially in the silence after,  when you know the phone won't ring with any new messages, probably ever again.It's so weird to see his number in my phone again..I miss him so much..Why did these feelings     come back?
 
4 months have passed..4 messages to check the damage done..I am a mess..But he won't know it from my messages...
 
Summer can be so cruel.