Mesed up !

Wow 5 days on from the first bad day and I actually thought I might feel better, it is so messed up, I have been so up and down emotianally, so paro, so anxious so tired, so sad and so DOWN to the point of thnking that if I just sleep for ever I can just forget the pain and not feel the pain no more :( When will I feel better its just to much and no med will ever help :(