Merry Christmas, though.
It's Friday again and I am not going to the Al.anon meeting again...
I am so tired from this long week of work plus more problems at home, surprise surprise.
I am feeling a lot of anxiety lately, and I hate it. I am in more control of it but it keeps happening I feel at a loss. Sometimes I feel like it happens to me because I don't have "real" things to worry about.. I am off school til the end of January so my mind has time to wonder and starts manifesting these physical symptoms and unrealistic fears. I feel trapped in my own mind, I am on my cycle and my hormone levels went from extremely high to extremely low (looking at it from a scientific standpoint doesn't really help but hey it's worth a shot). I felt crazy high on anxiety yesterday, and now today I am blah.. I had two cups of coffee yesterday BAD MOVE, it wasn't on purpose and it simply exacerbated my already anxious body. Today I haven't had any and feel like a slug. I did work last night 11-7 so that could be it plus I worked 40 hours already this week but I like my happy medium of being happy but not anxious.
I just feel at such a loss, yesterday I was hormonal and grumpy and today its just the same (minus the hyperness). I thought to myself yesterday " All I wanna do is be tired, and then today I am like All I wanna be is awake".
Ugh, I cannot wait to be off work til Christmas Day. I need a break from the schedule and some relax mode from the responsibilities of work and the pressures of the house. I am spending the weekend at my boyfriends, were taking his dog to get groomed, finishing shopping and I am baking cookies with his mom. I can't wait to relax.
I just feel so "down in the dumps" I am looking forward to Christmas but I just can't shake this funk. I hope all goes well and I can perk up with out getting too perky.
Merry Christmas, though.
I am so tired from this long week of work plus more problems at home, surprise surprise.
I am feeling a lot of anxiety lately, and I hate it. I am in more control of it but it keeps happening I feel at a loss. Sometimes I feel like it happens to me because I don't have "real" things to worry about.. I am off school til the end of January so my mind has time to wonder and starts manifesting these physical symptoms and unrealistic fears. I feel trapped in my own mind, I am on my cycle and my hormone levels went from extremely high to extremely low (looking at it from a scientific standpoint doesn't really help but hey it's worth a shot). I felt crazy high on anxiety yesterday, and now today I am blah.. I had two cups of coffee yesterday BAD MOVE, it wasn't on purpose and it simply exacerbated my already anxious body. Today I haven't had any and feel like a slug. I did work last night 11-7 so that could be it plus I worked 40 hours already this week but I like my happy medium of being happy but not anxious.
I just feel at such a loss, yesterday I was hormonal and grumpy and today its just the same (minus the hyperness). I thought to myself yesterday " All I wanna do is be tired, and then today I am like All I wanna be is awake".
Ugh, I cannot wait to be off work til Christmas Day. I need a break from the schedule and some relax mode from the responsibilities of work and the pressures of the house. I am spending the weekend at my boyfriends, were taking his dog to get groomed, finishing shopping and I am baking cookies with his mom. I can't wait to relax.
I just feel so "down in the dumps" I am looking forward to Christmas but I just can't shake this funk. I hope all goes well and I can perk up with out getting too perky.
Merry Christmas, though.
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