Merry Christmas 2010...

Well first of all Merry Christmas to everyone:) On to the new development. Last night after me and my H (made love) I couldn't sleep..of course he could. So at 4 am I got on the computer. With my insecurities in hand I started a new (fake) FB acct. so that maybe I could look at the OW profile to make sure she wasn't saying anything about being with my H. Well it didn't work cuz all her info is blocked unless your a friend. So as I was trying to find a profile pic for my new acct. I was opening pic's in the recent downloads on my computer and I found a new pic of guess who? At least it wasn't a nude pic. You can hover over the pic and it tell you exactly when it was down loaded. 12/7/10 @ 11:something.....While I was at work and that is one of her days off, per info he gave me in the beginning. So all the times I asked him if she contacted him and he got mad for me asking, well I guess that shows why he got mad. It was of course driving me crazy this wonderful x-mas morning. So as my H did his morning potty break, I broke down and called the OW on Christmas. She answered and I asked her to not hang up that I just needed to talk to her...Thank God she didn't hang up. I told her that I didn't want any problems and I would never approach her. I said as a woman can she grant me the least of tell me if they were still in contact. That I could not live like this and I deserve a answer so I can move on. I told her that way we would all be able to move on and if so they could be together. She said she never meant for this to happen like this. And said that this wasn't a good time to talk that I should be enjoying Christmas with my family. I told her that it doen't matter what day it is cuz I can't live like this and need a answer. I gave her my email. Told her to please send me proof that they are still in contact. I pray she will so I can deal with this and get on with my life. I don't know when I will confront my H. I will try to wait and see if she sends me proof. I love him but since he has lied once again I have to prepare myself for some major change. I don't know if I can be around him today. And there would be no excuse for that download except that he had contact with her. Plus the OW said can't we talk about this later that today was not a good day because of x-mas. Why would you say that unless there was something to say. Well remember me in your prayers so I can get threw this. Hugs to everyone:)