Merry Christmas

Christmas is a hard time for me, emotionally. I tend to let stress overwhelm me all year long, and I always get stressed around this time of year. Lately I have a been dabbling in CBT which is helping me develop coping skills to deal with my depression, anxiety, and poor self esteem. I still feel rather lonely though. I don't really have many friends and don't really know any of my coworkers since my boss left a few months ago. I really wish I could drive and had a car but I can't afford any of it and even if I could I worry that my anxiety would take over and I'd end up on the side of the road somewhere, totally panicking.  I'm no good at reaching out to people and I think a lot of it has to do with not driving. I feel like I'm putting pressure on the other person to do all the work.  This morning I'm feeling a little sad but definitely looking forward to my Christmas vacation which starts pretty much whenever we get to leave because of the coming snow storm. I miss my old manager a lot today. She and I got along really well but she left in July. Long story. Sigh...hope we get out early. Merry Christmas...