Mental Hospital Flashback Anxiety

Flashbacks have come back again tonight. I thought I was going to have a little while until the next since I had them last night. Guess not. Using Finnish ASMR to help me calm down since I caught it early this time and it didn't just throw themselves at me like last night. It's been a little over 4 years and it's still affecting me. I can't see my therapist until April when we get our insurance back. I thought I was doing well as it hasn't bothered me in at least a month, but I can see that's not how this works. I feel absolutely hopeless when they come and they come at kind of random times. Usually in the evening and night. That's when the worst memories happened. So I guess it's not that random. I've been taking my medication regularly and I know it's the right amount as I've been doing so well for a while. Hopefully this doesn't last too long. I hate feeling like this.