Memories

It's 4:30 in the morning and I'm awake due to a headache that awoke me around 2:47 am. Yesterday I went to a friend's wedding out in Canyon lake, TX. I hadn't seen her since we graduated high school back in 97. I saw a couple of friends back from school there as well. It was nice reminiscing about our high school worry free days. I was able to wear a short high heel shoe last night but like normal I'm paying for it now. My lower back is hurting and the ridge on my head is swollen hence the headache. I wonder if I'm ever going to be the way I used to be before where I didn't have to think about the consequences of my actions pain wise. I could wear anything, walk any distance, climb any amour of stairs or rocks and not have to worry about how I was going to feel that night or the next day. I have been miserable since the accident and to think all it took was a split second. If I could go back and skip that entire day I would. I used to be the optimistic one but now I think I get more pessimistic by the minute. I truly hate this but it's my new truth.