Meltdown at the RE
I want to thank all of you who commented on yesterday's journal entry with so much support....I swear I couldn't get thru any of this without you wonderful ladies!
I just got back from my cd 3 blood and sono. Well, I ended up having a total meltdown in the office UGH! I didn't realize today was the day they were going to go over all the shots, etc. and DH is home with a 102 fever and the flu and he is the one who is going to be doing my shots. So here I am, by myself, freaking out, not realizing I would be starting any medication today (I'm sure you IVF veterans are getting a kick out of this story) and yeah, I know, duh, maybe I should have realized this. I am not doing conventional IVF, I am doing a mini cycle which has way less hormones/drugs (long story, I wrote in a journal a while back about a liver tumor I had years ago from the BCP and I am not supposed to take any hormones so we opted for a mini cycle to reduce the amount of hormones I take). Anyway, they tell me I'm supposed to begin femara and clomid today (apparantly my RE has found that both at the same time produce better results?) and I'm waiting for a call to hear how my bloodwork came out and when I'm supposed to begin the injections. Meanwhile, I also found out there's a chance now our insurance isn't going to pay for the meds when we thought they would. WTF!??!!? Somehow, sitting there today by myself this all became very very real and I just freaked out. I know I am a strong person, but I don't know if I am up for this!!! How do you all do this and for some of you, so often!? I must be the biggest chicken out there! How can I handle childbirth if I am already freaking out?! Deep breaths......
I just got back from my cd 3 blood and sono. Well, I ended up having a total meltdown in the office UGH! I didn't realize today was the day they were going to go over all the shots, etc. and DH is home with a 102 fever and the flu and he is the one who is going to be doing my shots. So here I am, by myself, freaking out, not realizing I would be starting any medication today (I'm sure you IVF veterans are getting a kick out of this story) and yeah, I know, duh, maybe I should have realized this. I am not doing conventional IVF, I am doing a mini cycle which has way less hormones/drugs (long story, I wrote in a journal a while back about a liver tumor I had years ago from the BCP and I am not supposed to take any hormones so we opted for a mini cycle to reduce the amount of hormones I take). Anyway, they tell me I'm supposed to begin femara and clomid today (apparantly my RE has found that both at the same time produce better results?) and I'm waiting for a call to hear how my bloodwork came out and when I'm supposed to begin the injections. Meanwhile, I also found out there's a chance now our insurance isn't going to pay for the meds when we thought they would. WTF!??!!? Somehow, sitting there today by myself this all became very very real and I just freaked out. I know I am a strong person, but I don't know if I am up for this!!! How do you all do this and for some of you, so often!? I must be the biggest chicken out there! How can I handle childbirth if I am already freaking out?! Deep breaths......
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You\'ve totally go this :-) It\'s alot all at once, but you\'ll look back and it will be completely worth it :-) Best of luck, and HUGS.
Hang in there, friend! I agree with some of the other posts. Look at one step at a time. You will get through it. You and everyone on here are all stronger than you know.