Maybe some resolution

I am kinda confused. I was supposed to go with my dad to a concert, somewhat for his birthday, but I told him that he should go with his wife because I am having some adverse reactions to my new medication and wasn't feeling up to going. But, now I am considering going out with my friends around 9:30pm. We would just be going to a brain logo, but I feel that I am letting him down by going out with others and doing other things when I was booked to go out with him. I don't know if he would have a problem with this. I think that he would know that I was not doing this to hurt him or because I really didn't want to go out with him. I just am feeling better now and I have not gone out in a long time and I think that I need to. I need to get some of this pressure out of my system and go play for a little. I wonder what I should wear? Should I wear my contacts or glasses? I know that Katie is going to put the idea towards Jay but I really hope he doesn't come. I don't think I really want to see him tonight. Plus, when Katie is not with Jay it feels less like a  couples outing and more like friends getting together. 
 
I dropped my biology class last week and that relieved some stress. There was too much time and pressure coming from that class. And I just need to take it during a semester that is set up correctly for it. This was not the right semester. I am hopping that it will reduce some stress in my life because it is really getting to me. I am trying a new ADHD medication and may try an SSRI for my panic attacks. I love what I am doing and I know that I want to be in the place and field that I am in. I suppose that I am just burning time until it is time to go out. I don't even know if I want to do this, spend the money and waste the time and the maybe feel shitty in the morning... blah I feel like that now, lol. Well I better go. I will write tomorrow I hope.
 
Goodnight moon.