Maybe it is okay to be happy....regardless

Well, I am not sure if I wrote this in my journal, but I am also on another website, called Plenty of Fish. It is a dating website and I went on there and then left one time and now I'm back with a 'venges. Anyway, I found a "brother" of my Best friend, he was a flake.. so on to the next. That guy turn out to be a flake times 10. I am not be picky, but I didn't like his vibes and he was too in a rush, which I am, but I want to be the one in control of the rushing. Smh, Idc, It needs to be said. Oh well, on to the next... this one maybe it, we have great conversations and he makes me smile without a thought. Idk, why. But I am guessing that he is over weight, which would be a problem for me, because I don't want to deal with things that I cannot control and I am looking for my next husband, I don't want to be a widow early. Anyway, I'm looking forward to hear from him tonight. I really like him because he is not at me with rude comments and he makes me feel like this can progress to another level with ease.
Next, I'm back in the gym, I'm in therapy, I'm going back to school and work is work. Idk about work, it makes me sick sometimes, but I need to learn to be grateful. So I am. Also, I'm noticing that the grass is not always greener on the other side.
So this is an update and rambling all in one. Good night.