maybe

maybe the truth of what i struggle with is, which is hard to say though it's probably simple, that we need to acknowledge our feelings

negative and positive and yet deal with others and the sometimes conflict witih others and still live our lives moving forward. So often I feel I live in reaction to life but maybe that's not the focus for me now. I have just had to learn to deal with my feelings without letting them get in the way of doing what i need to do to survive. Part of that is getting along with others and part of that is remaining committed to the work at hand. Moving forward and keeping organized as I can. I feel like if I do start to see a new Therapist - it will be about me negotiating his or her ideas about life -- and will also be about me asserting and affirming my own in the presence of him or her. I don't know if I want to start seeing a therapist. I do like engaging with others and learning their different points of view but I guess I wonder where i am going in life, am I rudderless or is it all about the journey? peace, things are alright for now.