May 30, 2014, etc. from inkpad app

All I can feel now is pain and desire. The raw energy of dysfunction.Endless loops of devastating thoughts.June 17I hate my life. This constant stream of consciousness. I feel like im floating above it all, waiting for something to take hold, something to change. I am connected to my disconnect. I will never be one of them, nor will i ever be the other.June 25, 2014I was made to feel incompetent because of my disease.June 26Feed from me, my masterAnd let me drink of youAug 11You carved a chasm in my soul. I have never been able to forget you, no matter how hard I've tried, or how desperately I've needed to. You loved me way too much for far too long. Your words haunt me to this day, and I feel they will never cease.August 19, 2014once upon a time i hated the world. but i only hated the world when in reality i hated me. when my inner voice had nothing nice to say. when my plans and dreams were rot and decay.Aug 26~ dont try to find me// i love so big and feel so deeply// there are no such things as promises. Only actions.Sep 8, 2014I'm mourning th loss of our love. Th love tht had never grown. Th love tht we thought was ours. Th love we wanted to share so badly, yet never developed. We are just two stones unable to budge, unable to share, unable to feel, no matter how much we want it.Step 13, 2014Sometimes it feels like I'm holding my breath. Other times it's as if I'm underwater, drowning.