march 3, 2013

Not sure if I have been depressed this weekend or not. Slept a great deal, but it seems to be more because I am really really fatigued than anything else. But I'm not sure. I do feel somewhat down. I have hibernated all weekend except for going out to get something to eat. Did not go to social security friday to change my name. I keep dragging my feet on doing what I need to do to cut this last string to him. I'm tremendously lonely but I am not doing what I need to do to remedy that. I spend alot of time daydreaming and writing scenes in my head for when I do go completely no contact and for when my replacement moves down here. I seem to be treading water right now. Goasl for this week are to get my butt to work every day, go to social security office and start name change. goals at home are to take the rest of the garbage to the dumpster and get the rest of the boxes out of the living room.