manic ramblings
I should be asleep , like them. But instead I stay awake listening to them sleep.
I stay awake, stressed out so much that I want to bury my face in my pillow and cry. I cant , I keep things together. Stay strong. Dont be weak. Dont fall apart.
I feel crazy. I love Newport, I love this family. I hate feeling useless. I NEED to find us a place. I NEED to work. I NEED to feel important. Its so hard, I left my sister and her kids , I left my dog with my mom in Tx till I got settled here and I miss him so much, hes my baby. I just wanted him to feel safe until we got settled. Im trying so hard to keep it together for everybody. To act like nothing bothers me. Its just hard. Im not moving back to tx i feel safe here. New memories. Fresh start and apparently manic ramblings.
I stay awake, stressed out so much that I want to bury my face in my pillow and cry. I cant , I keep things together. Stay strong. Dont be weak. Dont fall apart.
I feel crazy. I love Newport, I love this family. I hate feeling useless. I NEED to find us a place. I NEED to work. I NEED to feel important. Its so hard, I left my sister and her kids , I left my dog with my mom in Tx till I got settled here and I miss him so much, hes my baby. I just wanted him to feel safe until we got settled. Im trying so hard to keep it together for everybody. To act like nothing bothers me. Its just hard. Im not moving back to tx i feel safe here. New memories. Fresh start and apparently manic ramblings.
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Feeling safe is so important. I\'m proud of you and I think you have a lot of reasons to be proud of yourself. All I can say is, keep up the good work!